Wednesday, August 31, 2005
@7:04 AM
Agenda I failed. *sigh*
Bow and I made a pact to sleep before 12 last night but we ended up on bed at two in the morning. Argh. But one good thing was we managed to finish all our tutorials for this week. *Give ourselves a pat on our backs* =D
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I survived in lecture and tutorial today. *YeaH* Thought I would not be able to make it this morning since I only caught 5 hrs plus of sleep last night. But I was wrong. Have absolutely no idea from where did I conjure this unseen power tt gave me so much determination to pull thru the 2 hrs span of Micro lecture this early morning from 8.30 till 10.30. It showered me with the will to survive. At the end of the lecture, I was suddenly so proud of myself that I din doze off a single time. ^-^
Happy things don't just end like that. For me at least. =D
As usual, I would pray hard on every Tuesdays' Macro tutorial, hoping that I'm not tt 'lucky' enough to be hand-picked by Dr Pak to work on the questions. Oh well. My prayers werent answered today though. Anyway, I already hav this premonition before the lesson that I'll sure be called for one of the questions. So I was more or less mentally prepared for it. Fortunately, I was not asked to do the question that I've least confident of.
So there I was, presenting Qn 5 on 'The Govt and Fiscal Policy' chapter. Again,I felt all the jittery a.k.a my pre-presentation symptoms. Even when I was writing my ans on the board, I could feel my shaky hands. However, the moment I caught the attention of my 'earthly stringy band', the fear disappeared instantly from within. It was as if telling me that 'Dun worry! Jus keep your nerves and you'll be fine.=D' Tt instantly boosted my confidence and made me go all out for that one and only question I presented. With His encouragement, I explained my solutions calmy as if I'm teaching a class of 20 plus students, showing them my analysis for the question step-by-step.
After my short presentation...
*Phew* I heaved a great great relief that it was all over. I felt as if a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I looked at Dr Pak upon finishing my explanation to signal him I was done already. He seemed to give a nod of satisfaction. Well..I wasnt very sure abt that nevertheless.
"That was a good and clear presentation by Hwee Lee." said Dr Pak.
My heart momentarily leaped with joy. =D A little praise like this is important to me cos' it gives me a sense of achievement. Some pple may think that presentation to them is not at all a big deal. But to me, it does. I always aim to give my best in every presentation,be it a major or a minor one, hoping that I dun screw up anything unnecessarily. Cos' tt will be such a spoilsport to my sunshine mood. =/
Now I understand the source of strength.
Anyway, thank you very much Hammy! You're my savoiur for the day. =D
Yearn for the days of innocence
