Tuesday, July 19, 2005
@10:32 AM
So many decisions to make. So much opportunity cost to incur. When will this end?
Never-ending.
Feeling rather sad to sacrify Hall X camp. *Big Sigh* Already I was such geared up for it, but I chose to abandon it at the eleventh hour. =<
Mus'art fund-raising concer at Jurong Green CC yesterday had somehow or other drained me off. Din expect it to drag till 11.00pm with all the Holland trip briefing and stuffs. I seriously think that the latter cld have been done before the marathon performance so tt it wld not delay dismissal time. Consider pple who live in the East and the dinner only ended at around 10.20pm! Plus clearing of stage and keeping of our instru, and all the waiting time whatever, I didnt reach home till 12 midnight. Thanks to Cheng Huat's dad who gave us a lift all the way to our doorsteps, I wldnt dare to think how late my mom had to stay up till just to see tt I was home safely. -DotZ- I dun understand why everything is done at the last minute when I believe it cld have been settled earlier. =/
Enough said.
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Partly because I was too worn-out yesterday night, in addition to my mom's advice that it's time for me to take a good rest before the trip(although she encourages me earlier to go if I wish to), I din really give a second thought to inform my GL tt I'm backing off from the hall camp. Guilt seeped through my tired bones cos' it was a superb late notice for my GL. Yes, I dun deny tt it was a very last minute decision. The scenario den went like the camp wld be commencing in eleven hours' time and there I was, sms-ing him tt I cldnt make it. Urgh. I felt bad about myself after tt.
*Humphz* Am going to discriminate this phrase 'last minute' from now onwards.
"Oh it was so sad..
it was so sad..
it was so sad when the big ship went down..."
Yah..it was so sad that I missed out the fun in the camp. *Haix*
A big big sacrifice indeed..(to me at least) but it is for a good cause.
I've been busy with lotsa things ever since I ended my work in May. And still, I'm busy right now with school, hostel and Holland trip preparations eventhough my long holiday is coming to a halt in a mere one week' time. Din expect myself to be such fully occupied this year, which explains all the necessary sacrifices cos' my prorities count lots. I cant afford to sway from my pink's health this week and the next 12 days in Netherlands. It gotta be hell days for me like tt. Tt's why I dun wanna tax myself with camp though I admit it's tempting. I want to be at my best at WMC, give my best shot on stage, and achieve the best result in the competition. NY poly can do it, FFO can do it(Of course! They're soo good lo!), why not Mus'art? Btw, congras to both orchestra for getting high scores of 86.92(Gold award) and 90.30 respectively. *Thumbs up*
*Counting down 5 days to Holland...=)
Yearn for the days of innocence
